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In which i discuss a playlist

 

I’ve been a little out of sorts today and it’s only 9:37.  There are multiple reasons for this and I’m not sure which one is causing this melancholy.

 

It could be because we’re going to be hearing from the last of Daniel’s college choices today.  It’s real and happening.  Daniel is going away next year.

 

It could be because Andie is in the midst of the most stressful semester of her college career.  She has a hard schedule, 8 hours of MCAT classes a week, 15 hours of work in the lab per week and she’s really nervous about the impending MCAT test.  Therefore, I’m going down there today to have lunch with her and give her a hug.  Sometimes, people just need to know it’ll be ok.

 

I could be because Keely is graduating soon.  What will she do?  She is having major surgery immediately following graduation.  She’ll be on crutches for 4 months.  This is the second time she’s having this surgery and the first time was awful.  I know this.

 

It could be because I uncharacteristically admitted some true feelings on my blog yesterday.  People have been teasing me about admitting that I love Kevin and it’s made me uncomfortable.  I prefer to be snide and sarcastic.

 

It could be because I’m writing a book about Daniel.  It has made me dredge up all sorts of memories.  Although it’s a book about hope, just reading about the past makes me melancholy and stressed.

 

Nonetheless, I decided to go workout and I’m glad I did.  I was telling a friend, Merrill, who was on the bike next to me about Daniel.  She was very encouraging about this so I felt a little better.

 

The first song on the playlist was Jamming, by Bob Marley. Wow, that totally reminds me of my getting high and living in New York City days.  Wow, those were so long ago but it made me happy to remember it.  I was smiling and singing.

 

Next up was “Fly like an eagle” and all I could think about was “Wow, Steve Miller Band” and high school.  It took me back. I leaned over to Merrill and grinned, “STEVE MILLER BAND…OMG”

 

A few songs later was I like to move it, move it from Madagascar with “King Julian.”  Funny enough, that’s Kevin’s ringtone on my phone.  All my family members have personalized ringtones and we love King Julian so that’s Kevin’s.  I couldn’t stop laughing.

 

Kokomo by the Beach Boys!  I leaned over to Merrill and said “this reminds me of the movie Endless Summer” and she turned to me and said, “I know!”  God this was fun, all this reminiscing and remembering in Spin Class no less.

 

Then, Don’t cry for me Argentina, from  Evita.  Merrill says to me, I love this song.  I said “I do too but I saw this movie the week before my mom died and whenever I hear this song I think of my mom dying.”

 

Then it was Danger Zone!  Hahaha …Top Gun.  I said to Merrill who by now was totally into the memories too, “this was the second movie that Kevin and I ever saw together.  St. Elmo’s Fire was the first!”  “I love St. Elmo’s fire” she said.  “I know”, I was so totally into Rob Lowe.  And then we started laughing.

 

Next, Change the World, by Eric Clapton.  I love this song but it reminded me of “If I see you in heaven” and I got sad but then I remembered “cocaine” which was basically an anthem of mine in college.  Oh, what convoluted feelings here.

 

Last, but not least, For you I will, by Jewel.  Oh Jewel.  When the kids were little Kevin loved Jewel and played it all the time in the car for the kids so when I hear jewel, I think of when my kids were little.

 

This made me think of rides to the beach.  We gave each of our kids a “song”.  Keely’s was “Do it again” by Steely Dan.

 

What a trip down memory lane.  I actually feel better now that I’ve written all this down.

 

Sometimes, you need to remember the good times and the bad just to pick yourself up.  I gotta go get ready to drive to Durham and give out some hugs.  See ya.

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22 Comments

  1. By Word of Mouth Musings
    April 17, 2012

    Come and give me a hug.
    We can watch St Elmo’s Fire (I have it on vcr) and then dance to Abracadabra ;)
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    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      oh Rob Lowe…so cute in that movie

  2. The Mommy Psychologist
    April 17, 2012

    Good choice on the workout. Much better than the “go back to bed” option that I would have chosen.

    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      well, I never do that…does that work?

      • The Mommy Psychologist
        April 17, 2012

        Sometimes. It depends on how long I sleep. If it’s til noon, not so much. Another hour- then I feel like I just started my day over again and maybe I’ll have a different result.

  3. Mayor Gia
    April 17, 2012

    Oh I love Evita! Even the one with Madonna in it.
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    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      Me too! That’s the movie I saw

  4. Julie
    April 17, 2012

    Having been through the ringer with my foot, as lame as it sounds, have you considered renting a scooter for Keely? If it’s an option, she might want to think about it. If I had to use crutches for the 3 months that I was no weight bearing I would have killed myself.
    And thank you ~ for the rest of the day I will be visualizing the Top Gun volleyball scene.

    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      Wouldn’t work at Duke…we tried. She should’ve gone to Kentucky

  5. Jester Queen
    April 17, 2012

    I think I somehow missed reading in the chaos of yesterday. Back I go to see what’s getting you teased.
    First, though.
    King Julian. Madagascar.
    Caroline can’t stand movies. She can, under extreme duress tolerate them on TV. So we never saw the original Madagascar. We accidentally saw Madagascar 2 (bad bad bad idea). Anyway, when the first one came out, we were pretty early in our occupational therapy career with her. She was still at the stage where the big square swing in the middle of the floor induced panic. She would only get on one limb at a time, and ONLYthe limbs went on. So she’d be half dangling off with her legs and arms on the swing until the OT heaved the rest of her up there and made miniscule swinging motions. The OT always had music on, and one day she put on Move it Move it and turned around and there was Caroline in the middle of the swing with this freakish maniacal look on her face. It was like the rhythm made her NEED to swing even though it sent her vestibular senses into a tailspin. She let us push that thing till I thought she would FLIP OVER. It was awesome. It turned out King J wasn’t the only thing that made her vestibular disorders take a back seat. Any rap. (I hate rap) It had to be played loud. But any rap at all made her move in rhythm. That effect wore off as she became more proficient, but there were about six months to a year when Miss Julie turned on loud rap any time she wanted Caroline to try something.
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    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      that’s an awesome story…do you think it has something to do with the beat?

  6. Amy
    April 17, 2012

    Oh Steve Miller…how I love you! Going to their sold out concert and getting a contact buzz from all the fun. Singing at the tops of our lungs and realizing if we just shut up long enough we could here thousands of people singing along – that is something special. It’s amazing how a song or a lyric quickly takes you back to the good, bad and ugly.

    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      Yeah..li love when a song takes you back

  7. Melanie
    April 17, 2012

    I love this post so much. Isn’t it crazy how much songs bring back totally vivid memories? That’s why I love music so much. Sorry you’re so stressed. It must be going around because I’ve been having a horrible few weeks. That’s awesome that you’re going just to give your daughter a hug. I’m sure she’ll appreciate that.

    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      awww…thanks…i’m glad you enjoyed it

  8. Lindsay Cutter
    April 17, 2012

    Everyone loves Bob Marley… We be Jammin =)
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    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      love him

  9. Bryan
    April 17, 2012

    I love Maddona too. Awesome post.
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    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      Thanks

  10. Kazzsandra
    April 17, 2012

    I love Madonna, even Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey.. They are the best for me..
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    • Lynn
      April 17, 2012

      Yeah…it’s fun hearing old tunes

  11. Graham
    April 19, 2012

    I also get those feeling of nostaglia whenever I listen to certain songs or watch specific movies on DVD.

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