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Today during spinning I made a decision. Yeah, I know that I should have been paying attention to the instructor but I was just in a dreary mood … again.
You see, it’s gray and misty outside and that’s how I feel inside too. It’ll clear up but I’ve actually not been in a great mood for quite sometime so I think I might actually need to change my meds.
I never used any until after I had kids but then my shrink put me on Prozac and while not perfect, I was so much happier and less moody. This year, since menopause basically I suppose, I haven’t really been in a sustained good mood for a long time.
He offered to switch medications but I said no. You see, before we hit on Prozac I tried a number of different drugs but I was very sick or dizzy or not well. I am very reactive to drugs; not just mood drugs but all drugs.
I can never wake up after anesthesia and it takes days for me to recover from it. It’s been so bad before that each time I have it I swear I’ll never have surgery again. That’s why once I hit on a drug that worked good enough I thought, “I’ll never change.”
However, since the time I went on it 20 years ago there’s a bunch of other drugs and while he offered to let me try them I said no since I was scared of how my body would react. Now I’m sick of this mood though and I think I’m game.
You guys who read this blog are great because you’ve stuck with me even though I’ve been a whiney unfunny bitch and hopefully I’ll get back to “good mood Lynn” and it’ll be a fun blog again.
I won’t be seeing him this week since I’m going to Atlanta to Mom 2.0 Summit but next week I’m going to broach the subject with him. Until then I’ll endeavor to be funny and keep you guys updated.