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In which i share my thoughts
Today, even though I didn’t want to, I went to my spinning class. My goal was simply to make it through the class and not get off the bike. I made it. Do I feel good about it? Not particularly. It’s just how it is.
At any rate, a lot of random thoughts have been going through my mind and I thought I would share them with you. If you don’t want to read them, go away.
- I’m bored and irritable with shit around here.
- I’m considering quitting my blog.
- I realize that I should NEVER make decisions when I’m in the mood so I won’t be quitting it this week.
- I’m considering making some changes even if I don’t quit.
- I realize I already made some changes but I’m not sure if I like them
- I like the “go ahead, amuse me” thing
- It’s interesting how things I don’t find funny that other people do
- It could explain why many people don’t find me funny
- I’m considering not doing the “whatever mom” thing anymore
- … at least not on a weekly basis
- I don’t like HAVING to write about something
- I don’t do well with requirements
- I’m not sure I’m going to post every day
- When I write its either feast or famine … famine lately
- I realize that I already signed up for BlissDom in February so I need to blog until then
- … and I also signed up for BlogHer in August so I suppose I’m totally screwed
- It’s harder to blog without a goal
- I used to have a goal but I reached it
- I also can NEVER remember what I’ve already written about
- Therefore, for all I know, I could be constantly repeating myself
- I’m trying to figure out what to do about the paintings
- My house has way too many huge canvases in it
- I have a decorator friend coming over to talk to me about hanging or selling some
- … possibly at the furniture market
- I need to start stretching my own canvases again…
- That means I need to clean up the art room and move out some exercise equipment
- I don’t feel like doing that shit
- That means I need to get Kevin to do it
- Kevin’s pretty busy with work though
- He actually travelled three out of four weeks
- … which kinda sucks
- Daniel is plodding away at college applications
- Of course, plodding is not how I roll so that drives me crazy
- I really can’t afford to be any crazier
- My dog who is faking his own death is a colossal pain in the ass now and keeps peeing on my couch
- … my white couch
- The doctors at Duke aren’t sure what to do with Keely
- … I mean, with this gigantic hole in her pelvis
- Not just in general
- In general, she’s an awesome kid
- NOW… she wasn’t always. Sometimes I wanted to kill her
- I didn’t
- Andie is actually the person I’m concerned about least
- Which is crazy because she’s insane
- But she has her shit together in this pre-med stuff
- I now know more about pre-med than I did when I was pre-med
- Which could explain why I’m not a doctor
- … or even a functioning human being
- I have a huge pile of paperwork to do
- I fucking hate paperwork
- That includes a huge pile of medical shit
- Which I need to get done before Keely needs another surgery
- Which might be at Thanksgiving
- Which I have to get together too! Thanksgiving that is
Jesus! All this thinking is making me tense. I don’t like to be tense so I’m going to quit thinking now. Perhaps I’ll just go drink coffee and watch my dog pee on my couch. Did I mention it was WHITE?
Fucking dog.
Fucking paperwork.
Fucking blog.
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I totally get points 1, 12, and 31. (plus more but I’m too lazy to type). I object to points 2 and 36 and I sympathise with all that falls between 1 and 54 inclusive. If you quit your blog, I’ll add it as my 133 thought on my list to find new blog to read.
Thought 134 “can’t be arsed finding new blog”.
hahaha…i had to go back to see what was what. Ok, ok, i’m not quitting quite yet!
Been there, done that, burned the damn Tshirt. That feeling of BLECH just sucks. Here’s my 2 cents worth: Back off on posting for while, give yourself a break. We’ll understand. Sell or store the paintings, if you decide you feel like painting more down the road it’ll give you room to hang the new ones. Don’t make any major decisions until the funk passes, I had to learn that one the hard way. Most importantly, breathe. Take some time for yourself. All the other shit will work itself out. Hugs to Keely….and you.
thanks for all the good advice…i’m already following quite a bit of it.
I too have learned NEVER to make decisions when i feel like this.
All my time is for myself…that might be the problem
See? Now THAT was funny – at least, I laughed – so what does that say about me?
Who knows. lol
I’m still thinking about going to BlogHer next year – buuuttt if I know YOU are going, well…
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I’ll be there. come to it
Wow, Jack Handy ~ Deep thoughts!
Deep….like fixing the world deep right?
Oh shit, to blog or not to blog. That seems to be the question of the year. I just had this problem. I was so blocked. So I made a change and now I feel like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. But this is about you not me. I would hate to see you quit. I like your blog, and the Amuse Me, and the Whatever Mom is pretty cool too. You just have to do what makes you happy and chuck the shit that doesn’t. As far as your paintings go. I think they are good. Maybe you’ll be able to sell some. Then if you do paint more maybe don’t paint them so damn big! ha ha. And for someone who doesn’t like requirements you planned 2 things so far in advance! (blissdom & blogher)! Holy crap. I wait until the last minute. So, maybe you are better than you think. Okay, this is really long. I’ll shut the hell up already. ;-)
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Pam, Pam, Pam…you make too much sense. I booked those conferences because i liked some people and i figured we would hang out there. I still feel like that, i just think i might NEED to have a blog when i go.
I don’t mind whatever mind…i just find it constricting EVERY TUESDAY.
I love the amuse me thing…
I have to have stuff in advance. If i wait to the last minute i panic.
also, i can’t seem to paint small for some reason
as always, you are awesome
Read your blog on my phone while in line at the bank. Must’ve been good because I got my receipt but not my change. You can’t stop blogging because I think I am going to change mine to “Yeah, What Lynn Said” and each day direct my post to yours. I’m sure that is highly frowned upon in the blog world but I am new and should be able to get by for a day or two…
I cracked up at this…I love that name for a blog!!!! Too funny…I’m not quitting YET!!!!
Or at least I’m trying not to
It’s all good – you’ll find the zone again if you’re not feelin’ it now. Sometimes a break from blogging allows for the rest of life to stabilize, catch up and accumulate some future blog fodder. The main thing is don’t feel pressured to blog because then it’s just not fun, and that’s what it should be.
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Just work out your priorities. Make a list. Throw it away. Do it again. Get first one from the bin. Check and if it’s the same, you’ve got them right. Then follow it. Yes, even if you hate it, but make sure you have a treat afterwards. Not before, no.
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Gosh! You’re so practical Sarah! I should try that sometime
Oh, my thoughts:
my thoughts would scare you…
Kinda like an Adele soundtrack..
Really? Now I’m curious…what are your thoughts?