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In which i spent the day daydreaming

Yesterday was yucky and gray and rainy outside.  Actually, today is too!  At any rate, I was in a foul mood, not for any particular reason mind you.  So I was in a foul mood and I basically accomplished nothing all day.  Well, scratch that; I did make an appointment for Tucker to go to the vet and get pretty-boyed aka groomed.

 

So, I was in kind of a crap mood and the weather outside matched the weather in my head and I was just basically wasting my day.  Eventually Daniel came home and then a few hours later Kevin came home and I hadn’t done shit all day so we had no dinner or anything.  I mean I never even went to get food or anything.

 

I asked Kevin how his day was and he said “awful” and then I asked what the problems were and he launched into a boatload of problems at work, with the economy, the building industry, our business in particular and so on and so on.  It was at that point that I truly realized what a horrible person I am.  It’s not like I didn’t know this.  It just reoccurs to me occasionally that I might be the most narcissistic person on earth.

 

I just wasted an ENTIRE day daydreaming and being in a crap mood and didn’t even provide a meal for my family and my poor husband is out there working his ass off.  I pretty much suck but enough about that.

 

Today, the weather is pretty much the same but I’m in a better mood and I was thinking SO FUCKING WHAT?  I mean, so what if I have a great life and there are problems in the world and it’s self indulgent to sit around in my little moods.  Yeah, I realize that people have it tougher but honestly, even if I’m in a better mood every single day it’s not going to change other peoples status in the world so I think I’m just going to stay the same little fuck up that I have been for a while.

 

Speaking of fuckups, somebody pointed out to me today that I actually was far more self-disciplined than I had previously thought.  They said that I worked out daily and that I also published this blog five days a week and I really have never thought about that before.

 

I don’t consider my working out on a daily basis self discipline.  I guess, its’ because I don’t necessarily do it for those reasons.  I work out every day because when I start my day with a workout, I can check of the little box in my head that’s entitled “Lynn did something good for herself today.”  See?  I don’t get any of those stupid endorphins and shit.  I just know that when I DON’T workout first thing, I might as well just admit that I’m going to have a shitty day.  So ya see?  I don’t do it for self-discipline.

 

As to the blog, I never really thought of this.  I tend to write in spurts and sometimes I like the posts and sometimes I don’t and sometimes I post them and sometimes I don’t but I always have enough to keep the blog full.  Then I have this little “go ahead, amuse me” thing, which honestly, I’m pretty backed up on and I’m wondering if perhaps I should have that twice a week.  I don’t know, what do you think?

 

If I were really self-disciplined I would quit avoiding writing out all the stuff I had originally intended to write instead of the garbage that I tend to write.  You see?  I had originally planned on telling all these funny stories but I really don’t do that so much anymore.  Should I get back to that?  Also, I keep intending on starting columns and other assorted shit and then I get bored.

 

For example, I have “whatever mom” on Tuesdays but lately I haven’t felt like writing that so I haven’t which really isn’t very nice of me but the more I have to do something the less likely I am to do it.  Pretty damn stupid huh?

 

So, mostly I’ve been just sitting around and daydreaming on what I want to do and the problem is that it changes on a daily basis.  I really don’t know what I want to do.  I mostly just want to continue doing whatever the hell I want to do with no pressure to do anything valuable or productive.  If being unproductive was a paying job, I’d be pretty damn rich right now!

 

So, these are the thoughts running amuck in my brain.  Read them, don’t read them.  I really don’t care.  Tomorrow I’ll have new and different thoughts and I’ll let you know what they’re about as well.  After all, this entire blog is a huge indulgence.

 

Bet you’re sorry you read this, huh?  Don’t answer…I don’t care.

 

 

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19 Comments

  1. Sarah :)
    December 14, 2011

    “It just reoccurs to me occasionally that I might be the most narcissistic person on earth.” On the WHOLE ENTIRE EARTH? Probably not. In this particular blog…possibly :) Things suck, on occasion, everywhere. This continues to not be your fault…mostly. I’m sure your family was able to find some form of nutrition, even though it wasn’t provided by you. It’s not like they are helpless kittens in a box in the closet in the basement. Do you have a box of helpless kittens in the basement closet? Dude. Not cool. The weather is crappy here, and I’m trying to remember to be grateful for the rain (at least we aren’t on fire anymore) and the fact that I have to go to work (at least I have a job…kinda) but mostly I just want to crawl back into bed and be all “F this noise”. And that’s ok. Sometimes it’s ok if all you did today was breathe. (Thank you pinterest, lol.) Now back to our regularly scheduled snarky comments.

    • Lynn
      December 14, 2011

      Yep! The whole entire earth!!!!! Sarah, Sarah, Sarah…you brighten up my day!

    • Liz
      December 14, 2011

      Sarah – I found that same thing on pinterest and had to re-post it! Perfect sentiments!

      Lynn – I enjoy reading your blog no matter what you post or how often. I find it immensely entertaining! Thank you!
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      • Lynn
        December 14, 2011

        Thanks Liz

  2. Name *
    December 14, 2011

    I hear what you’re saying with disciplined blogging – right now I’m blogging about 5x a week, but they’re the less interesting posts. The funny stories I really want to blog about/draw good pictures with seem overwhelming and I’m tired and I wish I were in bed right now. :(
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    • Mayor Gia
      December 14, 2011

      And that last comment was from me. Mayor Gia. SEE?!? I’m too lazy/tired to remember to type my NAME in! damnit damnit damnit
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      • Lynn
        December 14, 2011

        I give you permission to take a nap right now. I totally get what you’re saying…

  3. Jody
    December 14, 2011

    Well this about sums up my attitude sometimes. Good Post.

    • Lynn
      December 14, 2011

      I love that nice succinct comment!

  4. Julie
    December 14, 2011

    Personally, I love a good sulk (per Webster – to be or become moodily silent or irritable). I looked that up in a paperback dictionary just to give you a boost. Rock on, Crab Ass.

    • Lynn
      December 14, 2011

      Me too! But I really shouldn’t ignore everyone around me

  5. Pamela D Hart
    December 14, 2011

    Okay, Lynn, you can read this comment, which is NOT humorous, or poke your eyes out with a pencil, whichever would be less painful.

    You wrote: “If I were really self-disciplined I would quit avoiding writing out all the stuff I had originally intended to write instead of the garbage that I tend to write. You see? I had originally planned on telling all these funny stories but I really don’t do that so much anymore. Should I get back to that? ”

    You asked, “Should I get back to that?” Well, it depends on why you aren’t posting them. Are you avoiding them because you state you are an “under-achiever” and if you DO post them you will have accomplished something and can’t say that anymore? Then there’s the if you DO post them and you get a bigger following then you’ll have more expectations thrust upon you and then you’d have to deal with all that, so could it be avoidance?

    If you read this far and want to poke your eyes out now, go ahead, you can still post tomorrow, just remember where your fingers go on the keyboard.
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    • Lynn
      December 14, 2011

      Woah,,, I feel like I’m in therapy now.

      Nope, I avoid them cuz I’m lazy…I actually just wrote a post about that…don’t know when I’ll publish it though

  6. Donna
    December 14, 2011

    I believe we all have those days……thanks for being so honest :)

    I’ll check on you (your blog) tomorrow just to make sure no permanent damage was done. That’s what virtual friends do…

    • Lynn
      December 14, 2011

      i really, really appreciate that

  7. Jennifer
    December 14, 2011

    I suck too. I hope tomorrow is a lot less sucky for you. Or, at the very least, you just stick something in the microwave for the husband if he starts whining.

  8. Jenna Ochoa
    December 15, 2011

    Here’s what I know – if I’m in the mood to wallow in my self-manufactured misery, But DON’T let myself, I end up in an even crappier mood and a deeper hole to dig myself out of when it’s over. So wallow in the suck, I say. You won’t stay forever. Unless you do. And that’s okay, too.

    • Lynn
      December 15, 2011

      I totally agree with you…my philosophy as well

  9. daniella
    December 16, 2011

    A day spent watching movies can be a day well spent. Maybe you might want to write some reviews about the movies you watched for a website. Maybe you might get inspired by something you saw in one of the movies. Most likely, maybe you’ve just been working really hard and you deserve a day off every now and then. So go enjoy your day of movie watching – especially if it is a rainy day. Rainy days are a perfect movie day.
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