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In which i’m in a mood

One of the problems with having a mood swing disorder is that you have mood swings.  For the most part, I take Prozac, which keeps me, pretty stable.  I know what you’re thinking.  That’s not what Prozac is for but the truth is that I’m incredibly reactive to drugs and have had so many bad side effects from other drugs that I’m at the point where I’m way too scared to ever change my meds.

 

I didn’t start taking Prozac until after I had kids so basically in my mid 30’s.  I’m now 53 and even though every once in a while I’m so depressed that I want to change I know that history proves it’s a bad idea to do so.  Even though this isn’t perfect it’s so much better than it used to be.

 

Now that I’m in my 50’s my mood swings aren’t as intense.  So I suppose all you young women can possibly take heart from that.  At any rate, normally when I get into a “manic” phase I’m pretty psyched about it.  I’m normally really happy and very prolific in my writing or painting or whatever the hell I’m into at the time.  Last time I was in an extended manic phase I didn’t need much sleep and I got so much done.

 

This time, not so much.  This particular manic phase is sort of an anxious one.  I was talking to my shrink this past week (remember I go every week to a shrink) and we were discussing how I’m so worried about so many things.  It’s aggravating because I have absolutely no control over any of them and yet I find myself obsessively looking for solutions.

 

For example, Andie is going through the med school process and I know she’s worried and therefore so am I.  Kevin, of course, is overwhelmed at work and I know he (and the business) will be fine but of course I feel sort of helpless.  Keely is doing well and about to move out to Los Angeles so I’m worried about being an empty nester.

 

For some reason, I’m not all that worried about Daniel right now.  I was, but it seems as if he’s doing okay down there at Duke.

 

The end result of all this worry is that I can’t seem to focus to get any damn blog posts written.  I’ve written a few and I really don’t like them.  In fact, I don’t particularly like this one either but I’m going to put it up anyways.  After all, you should probably know where my head is at just in case this blog starts totally sucking.

 

Lynn

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8 Comments

  1. Julie
    November 7, 2012

    Although it sounds trite, this too shall pass. These days anxiety seems to be overloading most people I know (myself included). The upcoming Holiday Season doesn’t help either.

  2. Jester Queen
    November 7, 2012

    Oh yeah, the manic part can be so fucking miserable. Hold on to yourself. I’ll send good vibes (And good writing vibes) your way.

    • Lynn
      November 7, 2012

      I need them. I’m about to run out of posts

  3. cathy procton
    November 7, 2012

    I feel your pain. Good luck, will be thinking of you. Things seem to work best for me when I am fully engaged in some project.
    Although when you hit a rough spot seems like you thought you were ok until you realize you are really a train wreck!
    Glad to see your post!

    • Lynn
      November 7, 2012

      Thanks cathy

  4. Amy
    November 7, 2012

    Reverberate. Or something like that.

  5. Patty
    November 8, 2012

    Even though you may not like your post, I do. It’s encouraging to know tha I’m not alone in my wackado (yes it’s a word) emotional ride.

    • Lynn
      November 8, 2012

      awww thanks…sometimes i just can’t be funny ya know

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