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It’s Sunday the 23rd of September and it’s a beautiful day here in North Carolina. Kevin and I just worked out and then sat outside on a sunny, 66-degree day and I must say it was just about perfect.
We just got home and Kevin has a lot of work to do. I pointed out that I also really needed to work on my blog. Then he told me to go in the office and write some posts. Of course, the minute he told me to do that I was all like “there’s no way I’m going in there to write some posts” because I’m a bit like a child with that crap.
But that’s not really the reason. Have you ever noticed that you’re at your most creative when you have absolutely no time to follow through on your creativity? No? Well, that seems to happen to me a lot.
I’ll be spinning or working out or even just on a drive and I’ll think of something I really, really want to write about. I’ll have the entire thing written down in my head but by the time I’m home and I can actually write it down, I’ve either forgotten it or I have no desire to write.
On the other hand, I’ll have huge blocks of time at home where I know I should be writing or doing something else and I just don’t feel like it. It’s quite the conundrum.
I had about 10 different things I’ve wanted to write about in the last week and none of them are what this post is about so there you go.
There are days when I’m’ sitting down and I can just dash off three posts in a row and there are days when I cant write anything to save my life. Now if I weren’t so OCD about publishing five days a week it really wouldn’t matter; then I’d just write when ever I wanted and not worry about it.
But every week I start out by thinking, “ok, I really should just publish three times a week and then it won’t ever be weighing on my mind” but then I think “no, not this week. Perhaps next week” so you see? It’s my own fault that I’m crazy.
No one tells me what to do but by now I’ve never missed a Monday through Friday in two whole years and I kind of don’t want to ruin my record. And yet, I’m constantly thinking of quitting because I hate having to write when I don’t want to.
Fucked up? Undoubtedly but there you go.
Ok, I’m counting this stream of consciousness bullshit as a post.