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Written on Monday, August 13th, 2012.
Well, this day, which I figured would already be a bit chaotic, has already run amuck and its only 8:37. The reason I assumed it would be a crazy day is that it’s August 13th, a day that I have both dreaded and looked forward to for a long time.
You see Daniel is leaving today. He starts Project Build down at Duke University. It is a pre-orientation program down at Duke where he will perform community service, meet people and hopefully just ease into his freshman year. I honestly didn’t expect to be emotional because I very rarely am but apparently I am a little off kilter.
Case in point. This morning I had planned on going to Pilates at 8:30 as is my wont, and then proceed to the drug store to fill a prescription for Andie. What? Andie? What does she have to do with this you say? Well, Andie actually works at Project Build too so she’s already down at Duke. Daniel needed to bring her a prescription and I needed to have it filled before he left at noon.
So, I go to Pilates and since I’ve been out of town I haven’t actually signed up for Pilates Class. I mean I go every Monday when I’m in town so I assumed (I know, I know) that it would also be this Monday. But guess what? Nobody showed so I guess the place is closed this week. Figures.
No problem I thought. I’ll just go do the bike for an hour at the gym and then run to the drugstore EXCEPT when I got out of the car I realized that I had flip flops on so how could I do the bike in the gym with flip flops on. Well, no big deal, I’ll just run to the drug store EXCEPT they’re not open yet either because it’s only 8:30.
So, I did what any reasonable person would do. I came home and now I’m writing this post. I mean, I needed to write anyways and both Keely and Daniel are asleep. I was cuddling with Daniel the other day (yeah, I still do that) and I pointed out that we’ve had 2 years alone with the girls gone and now he’d be gone and what was I gonna do without my little boy?
“3 years mom” he pointed out. “What?” I said. “It’s been three years since both girls were gone.”
I’m so stupid I can’t even do math anymore. Kevin asked later “what about me?” but I pointed out that after he left for work Daniel and I had a routine which ended with us cuddling and playing puzzles or something before school. Also, this year he travelled a lot so I was with Daniel alone quite a bit.
I’m really going to miss him. Not as much as Kevin though. He’s really Kevin’s best friend. They watch sports and have lunch every Sunday to discuss football. I’m a bit concerned how Kevin will cope actually.
Well, I didn’t mean to get maudlin because I now have Keely back around here. It’s just that Daniel was this little messed up boy and now I can’t believe he’s grown up and he’s going off to college. Yesterday we reviewed how to do laundry and it was just plain weird.
So there you are. That’s my state of mind. Daniel is leaving today and then next Tuesday I have to meet him down at his new dorm (that sounds weird) to have all his stuff moved in. Kevin will still be out of town so I’ll have to do this by myself.
Welp, I better go feel sorry for myself although I suppose I should look at this day as a victory. After all, when he was 4 I never thought we’d be at this point.