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In which it’s the end of an era

Written on Monday, August 13th, 2012.

 

Well, this day, which I figured would already be a bit chaotic, has already run amuck and its only 8:37.  The reason I assumed it would be a crazy day is that it’s August 13th, a day that I have both dreaded and looked forward to for a long time.

 

You see Daniel is leaving today.  He starts Project Build down at Duke University.  It is a pre-orientation program down at Duke where he will perform community service, meet people and hopefully just ease into his freshman year.  I honestly didn’t expect to be emotional because I very rarely am but apparently I am a little off kilter.

 

Case in point.  This morning I had planned on going to Pilates at 8:30 as is my wont, and then proceed to the drug store to fill a prescription for Andie.  What? Andie? What does she have to do with this you say?  Well, Andie actually works at Project Build too so she’s already down at Duke.  Daniel needed to bring her a prescription and I needed to have it filled before he left at noon.

 

So, I go to Pilates and since I’ve been out of town I haven’t actually signed up for Pilates Class. I mean I go every Monday when I’m in town so I assumed (I know, I know) that it would also be this Monday.  But guess what? Nobody showed so I guess the place is closed this week.  Figures.

 

No problem I thought.  I’ll just go do the bike for an hour at the gym and then run to the drugstore EXCEPT when I got out of the car I realized that I had flip flops on so how could I do the bike in the gym with flip flops on.  Well, no big deal, I’ll just run to the drug store EXCEPT they’re not open yet either because it’s only 8:30.

 

So, I did what any reasonable person would do.  I came home and now I’m writing this post.  I mean, I needed to write anyways and both Keely and Daniel are asleep.  I was cuddling with Daniel the other day (yeah, I still do that) and I pointed out that we’ve had 2 years alone with the girls gone and now he’d be gone and what was I gonna do without my little boy?

 

“3 years mom” he pointed out.  “What?” I said.  “It’s been three years since both girls were gone.”

 

I’m so stupid I can’t even do math anymore.  Kevin asked later “what about me?” but I pointed out that after he left for work Daniel and I had a routine which ended with us cuddling and playing puzzles or something before school.  Also, this year he travelled a lot so I was with Daniel alone quite a bit.

 

I’m really going to miss him.  Not as much as Kevin though. He’s really Kevin’s best friend. They watch sports and have lunch every Sunday to discuss football.  I’m a bit concerned how Kevin will cope actually.

 

Well, I didn’t mean to get maudlin because I now have Keely back around here.  It’s just that Daniel was this little messed up boy and now I can’t believe he’s grown up and he’s going off to college.  Yesterday we reviewed how to do laundry and it was just plain weird.

 

So there you are.  That’s my state of mind.  Daniel is leaving today and then next Tuesday I have to meet him down at his new dorm (that sounds weird) to have all his stuff moved in.  Kevin will still be out of town so I’ll have to do this by myself.

 

Welp, I better go feel sorry for myself although I suppose I should look at this day as a victory.  After all, when he was 4 I never thought we’d be at this point.

 

See ya.

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25 Comments

  1. Vidya Sury
    August 15, 2012

    No! Where do the years go? Yesterday my son was born and today he’s fourteen years old! Thank God we still cuddle! Grade 10 sounds….oh so pre-college!

    I don’t even want to think about how I’ll feel when the time comes for him to go study somewhere. Who knows, I might relocate :D

    I wish Daniel all the best!
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    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      thank you so much. I miss him already :)

  2. Janet
    August 15, 2012

    YEAH for Daniel!!!! So happy for him!

    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      can you believe it????

  3. Cristi
    August 15, 2012

    Wow where does the time go? All the kids were just that-kids- when we moved across the ravine from you. And Daniel was 8 — OMG! But very cool for him to be able to start his adult life! Such an exciting time–going away to college. The most fightening and most crazy fun days ever, he’ll love it! Good Luck to you both! And no matter what, he’ll always be your son!

    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      It’s crazy right. We will have been here 10 years this December. He’s a great kid and we will miss him but he’s just down the road so I know we will see him.

      How are you guys doing??

  4. Lady Estrogen
    August 15, 2012

    I can imagine it will be tough for the both of you. My mother was a lot more frazzled when my little brother left than me – perhaps it is that whole “end of an era” thing.

    Congrats to Daniel & good luck!
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    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      Yup….plus boys are disorganized

  5. Mayor Gia
    August 15, 2012

    Awww, a bittersweet day for you!
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    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      Yep :(

  6. Dylan Lin Calista
    August 15, 2012

    I think even the toughest Moms shed tears when their little ones leave the nest.

    I left really early but I know I broke my Mom’s heart when I did. I’m back now though and we’ve grown closer :)

    This is a new chapter in all of your lives and I wish you many blessings in moving forward.

    Cheers.

  7. Lady Estrogen
    August 15, 2012

    Don’t know if my other worked.
    Hope you & Kevin adjust OK :)

    Congrats to Daniel!
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  8. Jess
    August 15, 2012

    Congrats to Daniel! I was a homebody and went to college in my hometown: we didn’t really have the going away tears until my parents moved from MN to CA…thank the gods I was married by that time, because I totally needed to lean on the hubs. But now we have a fabulously warm place to visit in the winter (and should really buy stock in skype). :)

    Hope you and Kevin (and Keely!) all adjust ok and Daniel has a great freshman year!

    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      Awww…thanks so much

  9. Julie
    August 15, 2012

    It really is bitter sweet. We want the best for our kids but “letting go” is so damn hard. Put your energy into your top secret project and be happy that Daniel is just down the road and not all the way in Lexington!

    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      Lexington? Why would he EVER go there???? hahaha

  10. Jester Queen
    August 15, 2012

    Daniel gives me hope. Sam is 5. He may just make it. Hope he has a superb year.

    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      you know what? Daniel was tested extensively the other week and still scored in the 4% in one test and the 40% in another so obviously, he has learned major coping mechanisms. It’s amazing…you’ll get there too

  11. Annabelle
    August 15, 2012

    I hope he has a great year!

    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      thank you

  12. Starle
    August 15, 2012

    Wow. My two will never grow up THAT much? I will never have to see them separated with one left at home? Nope. Sorry, have to cut this short. I am going to go play play-doh with them and be in denial.

    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      play doh…you have a while

  13. Theresa
    August 15, 2012

    Dang! That young man is gorgeous! Cuddles go along way in security. He will do great! And so will you!

    • Lynn
      August 15, 2012

      awww thanks

  14. Dawn
    August 15, 2012

    You made me laugh, sigh, and kinda tear up all at the same time! Best wishes to Daniel for a wonderfully successful freshman year, and may you and Kevin find your groove in the empty nest. And I hope Keely continues to get stronger and stronger. Mostly, though, I hope none of these events cause you to suffer a serious lack of quality writing material. After all, it is all about us, isn’t it?
    Ok, just kidding about that last part. Maybe.

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